Dorothy certainly ran into her share of scary "nightmares" on her journey. I remember when I first told John that I felt like Dorothy on the yellow brick road, he said "Watch out for the monkeys!" :-)
A few weeks ago, when still in the crisis part of this journey, I had two nightmares in the same week. I'm writing about them now because the message was so clear then and I'm still thinking about it and being affected by it.
In the first nightmare, my son Jeremy and I were in New York City. As we walked through the city, I remembered that "this is where 9-11 happened". Up ahead we saw emergency vehicles and when we got there, I realized that "this isn't 2010, it's the actual day of 9-11!" The Towers had been hit but hadn't fallen yet...and I was terrified because we were right there at "ground zero".
I started running and screaming "Run, Jeremy, run!!"... I ran and screamed until I could go no further, and when I turned around, I couldn't see Jeremy anywhere. I woke up.
Two nights later I had a dream that I was driving a car in San Francisco and lost control of it on the road. It slid off the road and into a river (?) and began to sink. I found myself in the passenger seat now with the water rising. It was then that I heard a voice telling me exactly what to do..."Put your hand on the door and feel that the window is down. Keep your hand there until I tell you to move." I did as I was told and felt the water rising higher and higher. At a certain point, when the water inside the car was level with the water in the river, the Voice said "Now! Slip out the window and into the river, and swim away from the car!"
Again, I did as I was told and swam away from the car safely as it sank under the water. When I made it to the side of the river, there was a couple there who helped me and fed me. I woke up.
The message is clear: as I go on this unexpected journey, I have a choice. I can allow fear to overcome me and drive me into panic and trying to run to safety on my own... OR... I can quiet down and listen for the voice of the One who loves me and is with me. I can hear His voice and allow Him to guide me through the challenges of the journey to a safe place where I am cared for.
In the past few weeks, when I get quiet, I realize that He is there and that His voice is speaking...loving and wise. My prayer is that I will listen and respond....for I know that I will find my way if I do.
Thank you so much for your continued prayers and support...John and I are truly experiencing the reality of God's presence and His answering your prayers! My energy is returning as my pain continues to diminish due to no weight-bearing. I'm sleeping better. I'm able to work some and things feel more stable. It's still a strange land we are in, but we know we are not alone!
Blessings,
Joanna
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